Brushing myself
off from that skirmish, I set out on a spiritual quest for truth, comparing
different doctrines and even breaking bread (or shredded coconut) with the Hare
Krishnas on Kane Street to learn more about the different manifestations of God
across the earth. I even listened to some post-Beatles music from its
ex-members to pick up something from their own spiritual quests. All I found
was the alchemy of the Devil as he creates gold from garbage, to which it soon
returns. I could still not find a Church home, but knew that as long as I
stayed loyal to Christ as a soldier of God, everything would work together to
His glory. In time, it most certainly did.
After that
unforgettable summer of ‘73, I made a commitment to Scorpion Karate which laid
the foundation for future events to come. Lea was dating one of the instructors
at the club, John Pineda, who invited me by to work out a few times. With the
lull in the action within the clique, I decided to give it a decent go this
time. I saw myself as the John Saxon character in Enter the Dragon, even though the self-styled Creator, Alfonso Rivera, nicknamed me the
Wrestler. I took to wearing my judo gi
from Loughlin which was far more durable than my new karate jacket and much
warmer throughout the Brooklyn winter.
My previous karate
experience was entirely visual, coming from the kung-fu movies that were all the
rage at the time. I remember throwing a kick at Mingo one time and he dumped me
right on my ass! I also had a sparring match with one of the kids at the club
shortly after joining, and he pulled up short of kicking my teeth down my
throat. I had a long way to go, but I was a quick learner and made up ground in
a short time. It got to the point where I was roughing up everyone in the club
up to brown belt level. After I got jobbed out of a first-place trophy at a
local tournament, I lost interest and began running classes of my own in my
backyard and up at Strong Place Church. I got a yellow belt out of it, but
would not progress until earning two brown belts over three decades later.
The clique was
still styling and profiling in the ‘hood, and I was drifting away from my
athletic pursuits once again until I found a good reason to keep myself in good
shape. It came in the form of a beautiful blonde who would keep my rep as a
ladies’ man (in the footsteps of my dad and Granddad before me) alive and well
for time to come.
Judy Emmick was a
lovely blonde from Connecticut whose ideal romance with the high-school soccer
star was wrecked along with his car in a driving accident. Our chit-chat during
business calls from ISO to Hartford Insurance led to personal mail that
resulted in a couple of weekend trysts between us. People were astonished that
I had been able to set up such a deal over the phone with such a beautiful
woman, and, sadly enough, so was I. It was another sad example of me not
believing in myself; elsewise, there would have been plenty more where she came
from. I seemed to have been so afraid of failing in the forest that I did not
focus on the individual trees. At any rate, Judy and I had a memorable time
together before I bitterly realized that our ships would never continue in the
same direction. She came from a different world, and her family and friends in
Hartford would never accept a karate-fighting wiseguy wannabe, which is where I
was at that point of time.
Unfortunately I
was still caught between a rock and a hard place trying to reinvent myself. I
continued to draw inspiration from the underworld bullies that captured my
imagination (along with that of dozens of other would-be tough guys in the ‘hood),
as well as the movie board-breakers who were all the rage in that day. Since I
wasn’t about to risk my future carrying a gun around in NYC, I relied on a big
007 blade along with my martial arts tactics. Of course, none of this would
help me realize any of my life ambitions, but I clung to what I had
nonetheless.
Around this time I
was studying my reflection in a subway train window and I was shocked to see
signs of male pattern baldness. For someone with my fragile ego and sense of
esthetics, it was a tragic situation, but suicide was not an option. It took
Neysa Flores to help me deal with it thirty years later, but until then I spent
my entire adult life violently protecting and defending my ‘condition’. In
turn, it was all about Vitalis hair spray in public, BT’s Spitfire cap and
Superstar’s black mask under the spotlight. If only a Neysa had come along and
got me to shave it all off. Well, pride goeth before a fall, and only the Lord
knows how many times I’ve fallen on bad hair days.
Looking back, it
seems as if cutting my ties to Judy and coming to grips with my receding
hairline brought me to a low point in time. Mind you, I had no serious plans
for Judy, but having her out of the picture brought my romantic prospects back
to ground zero. I was also faced with the possibility that I might not be as
attractive or able to seek out partners as lovely as her (or better) in future.
My hair did quite a bit to enhance my looks, and even in my forties I was still
what the women considered ruggedly handsome. You could not have sold that
notion to a kid in his early twenties, however, and I did not see my situation
getting better any time soon.
With nothing but
ISO and a martial arts degree in my immediate future, there was no doubt that I
had to make something happen. Nonetheless, it seemed as if prospects were
vanishing faster than looming on the horizon, and I knew I would have to make
something happened soon if I were to amount to anything more than a senior rate
clerk in the Special Rating Unit. 1973 was flashing before my eyes, and it
looked like things were going to hell in a handbasket.
Little did I know
that my hopes would soon be on the Rocks, as you shall see.
(To be continued...)
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